I told some people about my urge to kill her. Not such a good idea. They probably thought I was a serial killer in the making and deserved to go to a mental hospital. But, I want to go to a therapist which is not that different if you ask me. I just want to talk about everything to someone who understands and gives advice along the way. That's what friends are for, I know, but I want to try to talk to someone who's actually an expert at this.